Did you notice? Cause I did... And I can't help but cry.
I don't know why but Christmas doesn't make me smile anymore. It's like it disepered with my dad. I was sad that Christmas before the police knocked on the door.. like I knew something was going to happen. Maybe I did, maybe I just didn't wanna admit it even to my self.

And this year again it feels wrong, like something is about to go wrong and I'm scared. I'm scared that something gonna happen to my mom or to my grandma, she's sick and my mom isn't much better sadly.
Or maybe it's coming that's gonna happen to my fake aunt, I may not like her right now, I may be angry as hell at her all the time. But I do love her, she's family and I don't want anything to happen to her.

I love all my family and all my friends, no matter what.

She's worried to, I can see her and feel her outside, passing back and forward, she hasn't left for days, she never done that before. I wish I knew Terry Evans, then I could ask him if there's really someone out there or if I'm going stir crazy here.

Well that's that.
Love you
Xoxo

I just love those little kisses you get on the forehead.
You know, when that guy who gives you butterflies gives you a hug and kisses you on the forehead when you are sad.

I have a guy like that. He may not be mine, but a couple times a year I can pretend that he is. He holds me, he kisses my forehead, he kiss me and we talk all throughout the night. I always fall asleep before him, I started to think that he tries to make sure I'm asleep before he leaves the bed for his. It is kind of cute, and I feel so safe and so alive with him.
And if he ever read this and figured out that it was about him, I would be so embarrassed.

Luckily for me, only my mother and brothers are good enough at English to actually understand this.

Well on an other note, do you ever have those days where you just wanna cry?
I do, one is today. I just wanna lay down in my bed and cry my heart out, it's days like this I wish that I had someone to hold me at night and give me that kiss on my forehead and tell me that it's gonna be alright.

I mean, if it's not alright, it's not the end... Right?
That's what it says on my friends forearm and I so hope that it's right.
"But you know what they say about hope, it breeds eternal misery"
( quote by Spenser Hastings)

Well that's all I have to say today.
Love u guys
Xoxo

  I want it to be April now! Or no I don't want that, but I do.
Any more PLL lovers here?
Em is my fav
I love Mona too, the way she can do everything. She may be crazy, but she's still Mona.

Okey I'll stop ranting. Let me know if u have a fav ?<3

Faan osså, klart bilen ska paja när jag fått massa jobb.
I hate it! Asså tack o lov för underbara grannar? kör mig till jobbet kl 6 på morgonen! Hur underbar får man va?

Puss puss på er ?

  I just now saw that my lip/eye liners, that I have in a bigpack have holo on them!!

and if u don´t know what holo is, buhu for u!

check out Simplynailogical on youtube then, cause she is the holoqueen and I love her.

I´m a true live holosexuall,  got it.

yeah I know, im wierd, but hey, atleast I´m me!

Are u also a holosexuall, then please tell me! I need friends :( im lonley.

and holo nailpolish, but I can´t afford it, buhu   

xoxo

Åhåå! Här har jag inte vatt på länge.
Saknat mig? Klart ni har ??

Jepp, kl är verkligen bara 5:45 på morgonen, men så är det när man jobbar! Bara bita ihop o se glad ut!
O dricka en liter kaffe när man väl kommer till jobbet ?

Nån mer än jag som är uppe och jobbar så här tidigt? Eller uppe alls??

Haha love u ?
Xoxo
Lollipop?